Serbian | Thai

My Mom is from Serbia and my Dad from Thailand. I grew up with my Mom in The Netherlands. She moved here when she was 17 and she had me when she was 34. When I was almost 4, she met my Stepdad, he is Dutch. Because I had no Father on my birth-certificate he acknowledged me as his daughter. My biological Dad I met in February 2018. I signed up for a TV-show to find him and they did. I have to admit that I feel complete now. My Dutch Dad is 11 years younger than my Mom. I always had the feeling people were staring at me when I was walking outside with him. Because lots of Caucasian men go to Asia to get a younger girlfriend I always thought people thought I was his girlfriend. So I always said ‘Dad’ a lot when we were outside. My fiancé is French. I met him in Paris. He is Congolese, Italian and French. We are expecting a baby right now, so that will be an interesting mix. I see myself as a child of the world. I can be super Dutch, but because I don’t look like it, I’m different. I don’t feel really Serbian, but I love the food, the country and my name is really Serbian. I love Thailand. I’ve been there several times since I’m 14 and still going almost every year. When I’m there people look at me, but when I tell them I’m half Thai, they don’t believe me. I am a mix, and I don’t feel like I have to connect more with one culture than the other. I mostly I let people guess where I’m from. I find it funny to hear what people think. After they guessed I just tell them where I am from. I find everything positive. For me there is no down-side on being mixed-race. I have the feeling it’s becoming more common now. People travel more, people are less ‘scared’ of another race then their own, people appreciate other cultures now. My Dutch Grandmother told me that when she was young, she would only eat Dutch food. Now we eat dishes from all over the world. If I had the opportunity to be reborn I would like to return the same. Maybe I wanted to have met my Thai Dad and siblings earlier in life. That’s the only thing that made me insecure. Now I know them I feel like my puzzle is completed.

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